My 38th Birthday in the Countryside: A Purple & White Celebration + 12 Amazon Finds That Made It Special
A Celebration, A Reflection, A Thank You
This past weekend, I celebrated my 38th birthday. While it wasn’t the most extravagant party ever, it turned out to be one of the most meaningful. Sometimes joy hides in simplicity, and that’s exactly what I found tucked away in the Romanian countryside—surrounded by trees, sun, music, and family.
But before I get into the party details, I need to rewind a bit…
The Story So Far: 2 Years in the Making
These past two years have changed me in ways I never expected. It all started in 2023, when I felt completely lost—mentally, emotionally, financially. Something inside me refused to give up. I didn’t have a big plan, no step-by-step script—just a strong feeling that I needed to do something to pull myself out of the darkness.
That something? I built my website—eternalsoulwriter. My digital sanctuary. My outlet. A space where I could share freely, create boldly, and heal privately. It wasn’t just a website; it was the start of me taking my healing seriously.
Back then, I managed to attend 10 therapy sessions over about three months. I was paying out of my own pocket, and between the cost of therapy and medication, it eventually became too much. So I had to stop. But that didn’t mean I gave up on healing—I kept going through reading, journaling, and creating.
Later, I started my Amazon KDP journey, pouring my soul into guides, planners, and coloring/activity books for children. One of my first books was Eternal Soulmates – A Guide to Cultivate Profound Connections, and my latest is The Ultimate Amazon Influencer Guide. The income hasn’t exactly been steady, but the projects kept me grounded and gave me purpose.
That work eventually led me to the Amazon Influencer Program—where I’m still active today. I share product recommendations, film videos, create content, and yes, make a little income. It’s not much, but it’s mine. Something I’ve built, step by step, even when life felt like it was crumbling.
Living in Romania has its limitations when it comes to online work, but I’m no quitter. I hustle daily—applying for jobs, building content, showing up. Even on days when I’m mentally drained, emotionally burnt out, and questioning everything. Especially now, as I prepare to start therapy again this August—this time, through free sessions with a different psychologist.
Because yes, anxiety is very real for me. So is the pressure—social, financial, emotional. I wouldn’t call it full-on depression, but some days it comes close. I get tired. I feel alone. But I keep going.
There are days I feel invisible. Moments when I wonder if all this effort will lead anywhere. But deep down, I believe it will. I believe this path—hard, lonely, and unpredictable—was given to me by God. Maybe I chose it long before I even knew it. Maybe it’s part of something bigger.
I know what it’s like to be judged for not being “successful” yet. People see your calm, your effort, your creativity—and still label you lazy. What they don’t see are the nights you cry silently, the mornings you push yourself despite feeling empty. I’m not perfect. I’m healing. I’m trying. And that is enough.
I’ve been single for nearly five years. I have a lifelong hearing disability. I’ve lived through trauma. And yet—here I am. Choosing hope. Choosing creativity. Choosing to believe something good is coming.
How It All Went Down: The Birthday Breakdown
My actual birthday was on Friday, but we headed to the countryside Saturday evening. When we arrived, we had BBQ, listened to K-pop, played cards, danced, and enjoyed food, cake, and drinks. It was a simple but joyful celebration.
My parents hosted us in their cozy wooden gazebo—the heart of the evening—shaded, peaceful, and perfect for laying out all the food. The BBQ was handled by both my sisters’ boyfriends and my dad, and they nailed it. The food, cake, drinks, and snacks were all budget-friendly but delicious.
The Setup
Sunday morning, I woke up ready to set up my birthday decorations. I struggled a bit on my own, but my mom came to help, and my dad even fixed one of the big balloons that had popped. I had a moment where frustration crept in—thinking, Why does something always go wrong? Is it even worth the effort for just some pictures? But I took a deep breath, calmed myself, and carried on with what I had.
Nothing turned out exactly how I had imagined, but it came close. The kids helped take pictures and short clips. My cousin’s tree swing became the perfect spot for a little birthday magic. I decorated it with lamp lanterns, balloons, a birthday banner, tulle around the ropes, and other details.
With my outfit on, I felt like a true fairy. It was festive, fun, and definitely photo-worthy—imperfect but beautiful in its own way.
Below you have some of my pictures , aren't they looking fun , vivid and amazing ?
A Real Moment in Time
In the middle of all the laughter, music, and clinking glasses, I had these quiet little pauses. You know that feeling—when you’re smiling on the outside, but your mind still drifts? I caught myself wondering, “How will this year end?” Eight months have already slipped by, and it’s been nothing short of a rollercoaster.
Yet, in that moment, the uncertainty didn’t win. Yes, I’m still job hunting. Yes, I’m still building my side hustle and wrestling with burnout. But I also made it here—standing in the middle of my own life, smiling for real. I danced with my sisters and nieces. I let the music shake off some of the weight I’ve been carrying. I looked around at the faces who love me, and I felt a spark of gratitude.
38 might not come wrapped in glitter or fireworks. But to me? It looks like healing. It looks like rebuilding. It looks like courage.
And honestly? The little touches made it even more special. From the outfit that made me feel like a fairy to the lanterns and balloons that lit up the swing—these details turned a simple countryside weekend into something truly magical.
So, here they are—the exact (and affordable!) Amazon finds that helped bring my vision to life. I’m sharing them with affiliate links, so if something catches your eye, feel free to grab it and sprinkle a little magic on your own celebrations.
Women’s Midi Tulle Skirt with Daisy Embroidery – Light Purple
Step into a fairy tale with this light purple midi tulle skirt featuring delicate daisy embroidery. Made of soft polyester and spandex blend, it offers comfort and a flattering elastic high waist fit. The layered mesh creates a dreamy A-line silhouette perfect for birthdays, celebrations, or everyday whimsy. Sized slightly smaller than US standards—check the size chart for a perfect fit. A lovely gift idea for friends and family for any special occasion.
Rooscier Women’s Bow Tie Neck Ruffle Cap Sleeve Elegant Office Blouse – White
Stay stylish and comfortable all day with this lightweight, breathable white blouse. Featuring a self-tie bow neck and delicate ruffle cap sleeves, it brings a chic and elegant vibe perfect for the office or casual outings. This blouse flatters your figure and pairs effortlessly with leggings, jeans, skirts, or high heels. Ideal for work, interviews, or weekend coffee dates—your new go-to for versatile spring, summer, and autumn wear.
HHTCAL Closed Pointed Toe Chunky Block Heel Pumps – White PU
Elevate your look with these elegant white PU block heel pumps, perfect for both formal and casual occasions. Featuring a comfortable 3.15-inch chunky heel, they provide stability without sacrificing style. The sleek pointed toe adds a sexy, elongated silhouette to your feet, while the latex-padded insole ensures comfort all day. Runs slightly small—size up if between sizes or have wider feet.
I IHAYNER Fashion Top Handle Bag with Kitty Coin Purse – White Vegan Leather
Chic and versatile, this white vegan leather handbag comes with a detachable kitty-shaped coin purse for extra charm. Made from eco-friendly, scratch-resistant material with gold-tone hardware, it’s stylish yet durable. Features a detachable, adjustable strap so you can wear it as a handbag, shoulder bag, or crossbody. Perfect for daily wear, parties, or gifting.
Purple, Lavender & White Paper Lanterns – 15-Piece Hanging Decoration Set
Transform your celebration with this set of 15 round paper lanterns in purple, lavender, and white. Includes three sizes (10", 8", and 6") to create depth and variety for weddings, birthdays, bachelorette parties, and more. Made from sturdy rice paper with metal supports, these lanterns are reusable, easy to assemble. Perfect for indoor or outdoor events, they add an elegant and romantic touch to any purple-themed decor.
Happy Birthday Banner Sign – Light & Dark Purple DIY Garland
Add a festive touch to your celebration with this light and dark purple “Happy Birthday” banner set. Made from thick, durable cardboard with shiny, eye-catching letters, it’s perfect for creating a stunning party backdrop. Includes a roll of ribbon for easy DIY assembly—hang on walls, doors, or pair with balloons and streamers for extra impact. Suitable for all ages and perfect for photos, making your special day unforgettable.
PartyWoo Metallic Purple Balloons – 50-Pack 5-Inch Mini Latex Balloons
Add a pop of elegance to your celebration with this set of 50 metallic purple latex balloons. Each 5-inch balloon boasts a vibrant chrome finish, perfect for birthdays, weddings, baby showers, graduations, and more. Made from non-toxic latex, they can be filled with air (lasting up to 72 hours) or helium (lasting 3–6 hours). Ideal for balloon garlands, centerpieces, or photo backdrops, these mini balloons bring a luxurious touch to any purple-themed event.
Light Purple Glitter Tulle Roll – 6" x 10 Yards Sequin Fabric for Crafts & Decor
Bring sparkle to any project with this 6-inch by 10-yard light purple glitter tulle roll. Made from soft yet durable 100% polyester, it drapes beautifully and is easy to shape, making it perfect for tutu skirts, bows, wedding décor, table runners, and gift wrapping. The shimmering sequins add a magical touch to birthdays, baby showers, bridal showers, and other celebrations. A must-have for DIY lovers and event decorators.
Purple Crown Number Birthday Candle – Glitter Sequin Cake Topper (3 & 8)
Celebrate in style with this luxurious purple number candle, adorned with sparkling sequins and a jeweled crown for a regal touch. Made from high-quality, smokeless, non-toxic wax, it burns cleanly without dripping, and comes with a holder to protect your cake. Perfect for birthdays, anniversaries, baby showers, weddings, and more—combine numbers to match any age or milestone. Each candle is individually packaged in a clear PVC box, ensuring it arrives in perfect condition.
Purple Glitter "Happy Birthday" Cake Topper – Pre-Assembled Party Pick
Add instant sparkle to your celebration with this pre-assembled purple glitter "Happy Birthday" cake topper. Crafted from premium 300g glitter cardstock and a 100% food-grade bamboo stick, it’s sturdy, fade-resistant, and safe for desserts. The shimmering design catches the light beautifully, making it perfect for birthday parties, anniversaries, and other festive occasions. No assembly required—just place it on your cake for a stunning finishing touch.
42" Purple Number Balloon with Crown & Base – Standing Foil Balloon (3 & 8)
Make a statement with this giant 42-inch purple number balloon topped with a light purple crown, complete with a sturdy base for easy standing. Crafted from high-quality aluminum film nylon with neat edges and vibrant color, it’s durable, reusable, and easy to inflate/deflate with the included straw. Perfect for birthdays, anniversaries, graduations, special celebrations for kids or adults. A show-stopping decoration and photo booth prop that adds instant impact to your party.
LED Light-Up Number Sign – White Plastic Marquee (3 & 8)
Brighten up your celebration with this decorative LED marquee number light in crisp white. Measuring 13×22×4.5 cm, it’s battery-operated (2×AA, not included) and can be displayed free-standing or hung on the wall using the built-in hook. Perfect for birthdays, anniversaries, weddings, Christmas, and home décor accents, this glowing number sign adds a charming, modern touch to any space.
Final Words: A Bittersweet Toast
This year didn’t start as I hoped. And honestly? It hasn’t been easy. Anxiety, burnout, sadness, and loneliness have been part of the ride. But I’m not giving up. I’m still building. I’m still creating.
38 feels weird. It feels raw. But it also feels powerful. I’m proud of who I’m becoming. Of the steps I took since falling apart. Of the fact that despite everything, I celebrated. I smiled. I laughed. I danced.
Thank you to everyone who showed up for my birthday, and to YOU for reading this.
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Until then, Happy Birthday to me! And to you, if you're celebrating anything soon, may your day be filled with love, laughter, and maybe a touch of purple magic. 🌸